.the prayer.

Dear T,

I thought of you again today...
Another memory of you pop-ed into my mind while I was talking to Parrot after lunch. She was crossing her legs and it looked so long! And I was like "OMG! How come you're legs look so long?! It looks like a frog's hinds legs!"
Parrot: Maybe because I'm taller than you?! So everything about me looks longer than yours! Ha ha...shorty!
Me: Wtv...hpmh...but actually to come and think of it, it actually looks more like a freaking grasshopper!"

*Pause*

C, Pandi and I used to call you "belalang" *grasshopper when translated to engliseh* I don't even know if you knew this. lol. But only because you were super tall and we had our issues with each other back then so for gossiping purposes we came up with the nickname. How childish we were...
and I'm sorry....
really sorry for all the hurt we caused you at that tension point in our lives...we didn't mean to and deep down inside, I'm reassured as I know you have already forgiven us even without us asking for forgiveness cause that's just you T... n because of that we were friends till the end. I miss you ever so much!

Loving you always,
TinyKarina

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.worn me down.

I REALLY need to loose weight... =.=

Before anybody starts jumping to conclusion, I don't think I'm fat ok.... Just that my tummy is turning into a Rollie Pollie Ollie... And to top things of, I can confidently *and regrettably* say that I look 3 months pregnant! So this is what 2 bars of snickers a day can do to your tummy...sigh

And I can't even go on a diet! How do people give up food? Or cut down on their meal intakes? I have to have my 3/4 cup of uncooked rice and my chocolates! To all of you out there who is on any kind of diet, I solute you! Cause I know I am not that strong to do so...

But then again, my rollie pollie is disgusting!
So I started doing push ups yesterday and me being the hero that I am, thought that I could straight away do 200 like what I usually used to do. loser. Managed to only do only 50 and ended up with a very very sore cannot-even-bend-down-or-laugh-or-sneeze tummy the whole of today... I couldn't even manage 6 push ups just now!

Parrot said I should give up my snickers and all forms of in-between-meal snacks :(
but giving up chocolate is like giving up water for normal people *only because I don't drink that much of water =.= * but desperate times calls for desperate measures and I AM DESPERATE! So goodbye snickers *for now heh*. If I can overcome you means I can overcome any in-between-meals snacks. I'll see how long I will last. Fingers crossed!


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.cuz if you were my girlfriend.

What exactly does a girl talk a bout when she meets up with one of her besties?
Well I can tell you that studies and actually discussing an assignment they set out to do is definitely not one of them!

We we in uni for 5 hours and completed nothing! Where the hell did the time go? An hours lunch turned into a 3 hour lunch.
Topic of discussion: sex
Question: Are we the only girls who talks about sex in general and our sexual life?
Answer: ??? I'm sure *hope* not!
Anyway, it was too funny! All of us bending closely to hear one another and not letting the others around us hear what we were talking about. Failed miserably! All of us know how loud I can unintentionally be, how loud K can scream out stupid stuff when she gets shocked and how loud A's laughter is. I'm sure everybody at Mayo cafe heared our conversation but fuck it as it was a funny picture when seen as a whole. *chest as close to the table as we can get causing our boobs to lean on the table, hands on our chin, talking softly at one point and screaming hysterically the next* If your hoping that I would reveal our conversation, fat hopes as this blog post would take forever! All I can conclude is that I feel reassured that at least most of my girl friends including this 2 nuts go through what I go through :)

We ended up talking about babies *go figure* lol
and how unfair it is that we have to go through the excruciating pain of labour and child birth.
*I'm convinced that it is all because Eve convinced Adam to eat the forbidden apple* Thanks Eve!

A: I never knew what sex really was until I was 17

K: ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I found out when I was 14... What about you?
Me: Well technically my mom did the birds and the bee's talk with me and my sisters when I was 7 with this cute little book of a boy and a girl but..
K: WTF! 7?! Dude.... does your mom think that your going to have sex when you turn 10?
Me: No..... let me finish...
K: And a little boy and a girl doing it in a picture book? How sick is that?
Me: WOMEN! can you LET me finish! The little book was about how girls and boys were different in their genitals areas... and I actually found out what sex really was, the process and all, when I was 14 as well... before that my mom told us that a married man and women have sex to get a child and that sex is not a word to be used unless with your husband. And when we asked what sex was, she was like a man and a women sleeping naked together and..
K & A: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!
K: Sex can only be discussed with your husband! hahahahahaha!
Me: Shut up! And I actually thought all the while until 14 that you just have to be naked with a man to get pregnant!

K: Your mom is tooo funny! But then again, I also have a really funny story to tell. When I was 4 I saw a small boy's dick and I had never seen one before and thought both boys and girls have a vagina so I went home and told my mom "Mummy I saw the pp of this boy and it was swollen! Why is that mummy?" LOL! So my mom replied, "Maybe because he never took care and it is infected. But don't go around telling him or anybody cause he wouldn't like it and would be really embarrass okay?"

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHA!

K: LOL! And when my brother was little as well he saw a girl's pp and asked my mom "Mummy, I saw a girl pp today and I want to know why do girls tuck their pp in between their legs?"

LOL!
Good times!


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.i can't handle me right now.

Mid-terms this week are over!
But you would think that you would at least have some time to breathe or take a break no?
Highly mistaken! pft!

Next week: 5% Options test
5% Organisation behaviour test

Week after: 35% Organisation behaviour assignment due

6th October: 15% Options assignment due
5% Organisational behaviour test

7th October: 15% Corporate Accounting assignment due
25% Accounting theory assignment due

25th October: 10% Options test

Week beginning 6th November: FINALS

FML

serious.... fml

and to top things off my pp is hurting like a bitch!

*not because of the surgery but yet another cyst! Thank God it's not as serious as a bartholin cyst, no need surgery but still... why me?*


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.wish i.

Even though he is a pedophile (his wife is 34 years younger than him) and even though he cheated on his partner with his partner's daughter (who is that same young wife mind you) (disgusting!) and even though his movies are dam-long-ass-too-much-dialog-dunno-how-they-could-win-any-awards/nominees,

I still love his idea! If only it was true...

* I then wouldn't have to worry about my biggest fear = dying/death *

Time's flying way too fast
I'm not ready to take on the "big" responsibilities in life just yet
Why wouldn't time wait for wo/man
What am I to do after this semester? * do my professionals or work *
Bloody test tomorrow! If only my stress was about making friends in kinder garden instead...

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.chitty chitty baby.

Me: You know, I feel sorry for Miss Binks

Parrot: Karina, I'm studying

Me: I mean when we were her age we did a lot of crazy stuff. Even before that. A lot of stuff that our parents still do not know about...

Parrot: Hehe. I know what you mean *smirks*

Me: I'm sure you do.... but seriously... I kinda feel sorry for her. If only she could "tell a different story" to my parents like what me and KS do then at least she could get away with most stuff

Parrot: You know I never had that problem. I would say that my mom was very innocent when she was young so whenever I dressed however I like or said I'm going for a sleepover, if she were to question I would say "but I'm only going to my girlfriends house" and she wouldn't mind! But my dad.... no way cause he did enough shit to know what I'm up to!

Me: I know if I had any daughters they wouldn't be able to pull any sleepover stunts on me especially after 16 years old

Parrot: Exactly. Cause I'm sure my future husband would have also done enough shit like me to know what our future rascals are up to. And I wouldn't even let them go for any sleepovers after 13!

Me: You're going to be such a mean mom! I mean common, they won't do anything at that age

Parrot: Generation gap. Our parents didn't do the shit we're doing when they were our age. For all you know when our time comes, our children will be already clubbing in our stomachs!

Gee... I can't wait

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.can you tell me how to get.

It was a random youtube video, I know...
but it made me smile cause I used to watch Sesame Street and they showed a video like this. tee hee. Unlike some ppl like u, S, who adored Barney. Well, he only came after Sesame Street so I'm sorry that you didn't watch it (your not cool! bleh)

Pretty Lil Liers: They used the same song (Secret) that I'm using on my blog!
By the by, this song was my inspiration to start this blog. Not unique anymore =.=

I always grumble and whine about how unprepared I am for my exams, well lil missy, you have 2 20% test this coming week and you're procrastinating! So this is proof that your not studying so you're not allow to be depressed later this week!
Sigh
I better get back to studying....

.raindrops on roses.

Dear Mr Adelaide Weather,

My name is Tiny Karina and I somewhat reside in your area. I'm been your fan on and off this couple of years but could I just ask you a simple question on behalf of myself and everyone I know? Why have you been so PMS-y and crying uncontrollably for this past week! Not just a day or two like the past 2 winters I've been here but a whole week! You've soaked us terribly with your smelly tears that caused our hair and clothes to stink making us waste more water washing them. This winter is by far the worst I've been in and I need an explanation Mr! Dam your cold grudges and sneezing winds that blew me and my poor umbrella off a good number of times. Your mood swings are also not making it any better you know. 1 minute your happy and shining and the next your pouring your clouds out. Now I finally know what my boyfriend puts up with when its that time of the month for me but still.... Please ask your son, Mr Winter to settle his differences with Mrs Spring and let her take control now cause it is her turn after all. I really wish that you would take some immediate actions as I really do not wish to go through another week like this one.

Your gratefully,
Tiny Karina

.because i'm in love.

People fall in and out of love so easily. One day she is with that guy and next month she is with another. Why do people keep trying so hard to find their soul mates?When do they give up? I mean I'm lucky cause I already found mine but what about the others?I have found myself asking for how long more do you guys keep searching? How many failed relationships must one go through before they find the "special one"?

For me, things were easy. I didn't go out with any guys until I was certain I was ready to be in a committed relationship, that I knew that he was to, that there was chemistry and that he maybe the "one". And then I found him and till today, I can say that I just went out with one guy in my life, loved one and I'm still going out with him whom I'm deeply in love with.

So how do they know if he/she is their soul mate?
Even I do don't know that. All I know is that he completes me,
he laughs and cries with me,
he knows and understands me more then anybody could ever know or understand me,
he loves me for who I am and I can be myself around him,
we fight like cats and dogs but yet we always overcome our differences,
he supports me and
he loves my imperfections
and that is enough for me. It truly is. There is definitely more about why I feel that he is my soul mate than what I stated above but I just can't be fucked to say it all.

My mom told me a few days ago that people in love do stupid things.
But i beg to differ.
People who have no strong values (this does not mean that their parent's didn't bring them up properly), who are not confident of themselves, who are people pleasers, who do not respect themselves or love themselves for who they are ...
they are the one's that do stupid things!

My cousin comes from a good family, good parents, good values..... she's a church goer who was actively involve in the youth ministry and church choir. A quiet and reserve girl I thought she was. But so did everybody. 3 days ago everyone in the family came to terms that she had just delivered a baby girl. A 19th year old mother who just threw away her life. She doesn't want to give the baby up nor does she has any further education besides SPM. The father of the child is in the same position as her. She has ran away from home and forbids her parents from seeing her.

All because of
Love?
In love?

I'm very much in love and I love.
But I guess I'm blessed with my values and I know when to draw the line. It's not easy, I for one can agree. It takes a lot to say no,
it takes a lot to be able to share a bed with the person you love and still not do anything.
Love is doing what's best for your relationship, respecting and caring for the other half, knowing the consequences of one's actions. But hey, sex nowadays is a norm.
sex=love
(to many people out there)
but it is not.
When one is financially and emotionally stable with their partners and knows that their futures will become one then maybe just maybe they may be ready for that intimacy.


I pray for you, that this is not a mistake. It's just another path that is going to be harder than what was originally chosen for you. I pray that you will return to your family cause blood is always thicker than water, and seek your family's help; that you will receive all the help and support you need to be able to move on in life and still become a somebody besides being a wonderful mother.


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.on different pages with mr world.

I sit here in the office annoyed.

There was no internet access since I came here on Monday. And today somehow or another, I can connect to HELP's wireless network .

But....

I can't freaking log into facebook!!!

but my other fellow intern, J, can

like wtf right.

I dunno how I actually survived not going on facebook for a month!

I can't even survive a day now!

dam u facebook....

And on top of it I don't hv any work to do now.

Just sitting here and playing minesweeper.

My latest addiction.

Can you believe that I have never played it before in my life "properly". Who knew that the numbers actually indicated how many boms there are in that area. All this while I kept on thinking you'd have to guess where you think the bom's are not located.

And I have proudly achived a time of 44 seconds for completing the game.

Beginner's level of course :)

Now on to intermediate.

And now because I opened my big fat mouth and mouthed out I go no work,

*to J*

my senior just pilled a whole lot of work on my desk!

stupid jinx!

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.work it.

Did I mentioned that I started work?

Dec 28th-Feb 19th as an intern at KPMG.

Did I mention that I have no office clothes?

and that I'm stuck using my mothers dull clothes.

Ok that was mean la but it is true! The colours are all either black, white, brown. Mostly brown! No skirts. But thats my fault cause no skirts can fit my waist.

But all this does affect me....

Going to work everyday looking like an aunty.

Ok. Thats mean as well. The clothes are not so aunty like but its big on me.

Moving on. I feel like I'm dissing my mother too much now. lol.

Anyway, the first 2 weeks of the job was ok. boring more like it. I mainly sat in the office. Reading all the news in the Star Online newspaper, binding, admin work, 40% of the work was accounting based work, having 2 hour lunches when we are only allowed an hour. But who's to know right? Not exactly I'm sitting in the offiice and working on serious work. :)

Oh, and t top things off, I was the only intern in the office last week. Out of 20 mind you. All of them went to different client's place but not me. All because I joined late when the others joined on the 7th of Dec.

But I didn't complain. I left the office everyday at 5.30pm sharp while the others left at 8.30/9pm. Some even had to travel from Seremban. ha!

For this month I'm assigned to a client who's placed right opposite HELP.

Can't disclose to much, don't wana get into trouble.

Work starts at 9am-6.30pm. I come staright here of course.

So the internship so far is good.

No complains YET...besides the jam!

note: I really wasn't looking forward to becoming an auditor because of the really realllyyyy long hours.

Who would wanna work so late you tell me?!?

*fucking kiasu no life people.* minus my father of course. lol.

*But now I secretly like what I'm doing minus the hours!*

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.2010.

2010

How fast did 2009 go by?

I can still remember when I came back to Adelaide,

exams,

fighting with everybody,

exams,

moving out,

exams...

And suddenly...

I'm in my final year already!

I actually told Shango,

"I blame this all on global warming"

"The world is spinning faster!"

"The days hv become shorter!"

"Karina...."

"You do know that time is constant and there is 24 hours in a day."

"Global warming can't reduce the 24 hours in a day"

tee hee...

I knew that :)

Did anyone watch 2010 the movie?

I have been thinking alot about it these past few days...

If anything of that sort were to happen...

God willing, not while I'm still alive!

I just hope and pray that my father has 5 billion euro's for each of us stored in a secret safe for our safety!

Last note.

My new years resolutions:

which will never happen I know

It never does...

keep cool

be patient

don't fight with every1

study before 2 week before the final exams

smile more

And here's to hoping that by the end of the year, I'll be able to tick most of it.

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.shout.

Ok. I know I ought to be shot dead.

My blog is not dead and I'm not giving up again....

I've just been really really busy you know :)

And my router wasn't working. I was too lazy to go upstairs to use the pc.

It was christmas blah blah....

Bottom line

I'm back!

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