.raindrops on roses.

Dear Mr Adelaide Weather,

My name is Tiny Karina and I somewhat reside in your area. I'm been your fan on and off this couple of years but could I just ask you a simple question on behalf of myself and everyone I know? Why have you been so PMS-y and crying uncontrollably for this past week! Not just a day or two like the past 2 winters I've been here but a whole week! You've soaked us terribly with your smelly tears that caused our hair and clothes to stink making us waste more water washing them. This winter is by far the worst I've been in and I need an explanation Mr! Dam your cold grudges and sneezing winds that blew me and my poor umbrella off a good number of times. Your mood swings are also not making it any better you know. 1 minute your happy and shining and the next your pouring your clouds out. Now I finally know what my boyfriend puts up with when its that time of the month for me but still.... Please ask your son, Mr Winter to settle his differences with Mrs Spring and let her take control now cause it is her turn after all. I really wish that you would take some immediate actions as I really do not wish to go through another week like this one.

Your gratefully,
Tiny Karina

.because i'm in love.

People fall in and out of love so easily. One day she is with that guy and next month she is with another. Why do people keep trying so hard to find their soul mates?When do they give up? I mean I'm lucky cause I already found mine but what about the others?I have found myself asking for how long more do you guys keep searching? How many failed relationships must one go through before they find the "special one"?

For me, things were easy. I didn't go out with any guys until I was certain I was ready to be in a committed relationship, that I knew that he was to, that there was chemistry and that he maybe the "one". And then I found him and till today, I can say that I just went out with one guy in my life, loved one and I'm still going out with him whom I'm deeply in love with.

So how do they know if he/she is their soul mate?
Even I do don't know that. All I know is that he completes me,
he laughs and cries with me,
he knows and understands me more then anybody could ever know or understand me,
he loves me for who I am and I can be myself around him,
we fight like cats and dogs but yet we always overcome our differences,
he supports me and
he loves my imperfections
and that is enough for me. It truly is. There is definitely more about why I feel that he is my soul mate than what I stated above but I just can't be fucked to say it all.

My mom told me a few days ago that people in love do stupid things.
But i beg to differ.
People who have no strong values (this does not mean that their parent's didn't bring them up properly), who are not confident of themselves, who are people pleasers, who do not respect themselves or love themselves for who they are ...
they are the one's that do stupid things!

My cousin comes from a good family, good parents, good values..... she's a church goer who was actively involve in the youth ministry and church choir. A quiet and reserve girl I thought she was. But so did everybody. 3 days ago everyone in the family came to terms that she had just delivered a baby girl. A 19th year old mother who just threw away her life. She doesn't want to give the baby up nor does she has any further education besides SPM. The father of the child is in the same position as her. She has ran away from home and forbids her parents from seeing her.

All because of
Love?
In love?

I'm very much in love and I love.
But I guess I'm blessed with my values and I know when to draw the line. It's not easy, I for one can agree. It takes a lot to say no,
it takes a lot to be able to share a bed with the person you love and still not do anything.
Love is doing what's best for your relationship, respecting and caring for the other half, knowing the consequences of one's actions. But hey, sex nowadays is a norm.
sex=love
(to many people out there)
but it is not.
When one is financially and emotionally stable with their partners and knows that their futures will become one then maybe just maybe they may be ready for that intimacy.


I pray for you, that this is not a mistake. It's just another path that is going to be harder than what was originally chosen for you. I pray that you will return to your family cause blood is always thicker than water, and seek your family's help; that you will receive all the help and support you need to be able to move on in life and still become a somebody besides being a wonderful mother.


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.on different pages with mr world.

I sit here in the office annoyed.

There was no internet access since I came here on Monday. And today somehow or another, I can connect to HELP's wireless network .

But....

I can't freaking log into facebook!!!

but my other fellow intern, J, can

like wtf right.

I dunno how I actually survived not going on facebook for a month!

I can't even survive a day now!

dam u facebook....

And on top of it I don't hv any work to do now.

Just sitting here and playing minesweeper.

My latest addiction.

Can you believe that I have never played it before in my life "properly". Who knew that the numbers actually indicated how many boms there are in that area. All this while I kept on thinking you'd have to guess where you think the bom's are not located.

And I have proudly achived a time of 44 seconds for completing the game.

Beginner's level of course :)

Now on to intermediate.

And now because I opened my big fat mouth and mouthed out I go no work,

*to J*

my senior just pilled a whole lot of work on my desk!

stupid jinx!

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.work it.

Did I mentioned that I started work?

Dec 28th-Feb 19th as an intern at KPMG.

Did I mention that I have no office clothes?

and that I'm stuck using my mothers dull clothes.

Ok that was mean la but it is true! The colours are all either black, white, brown. Mostly brown! No skirts. But thats my fault cause no skirts can fit my waist.

But all this does affect me....

Going to work everyday looking like an aunty.

Ok. Thats mean as well. The clothes are not so aunty like but its big on me.

Moving on. I feel like I'm dissing my mother too much now. lol.

Anyway, the first 2 weeks of the job was ok. boring more like it. I mainly sat in the office. Reading all the news in the Star Online newspaper, binding, admin work, 40% of the work was accounting based work, having 2 hour lunches when we are only allowed an hour. But who's to know right? Not exactly I'm sitting in the offiice and working on serious work. :)

Oh, and t top things off, I was the only intern in the office last week. Out of 20 mind you. All of them went to different client's place but not me. All because I joined late when the others joined on the 7th of Dec.

But I didn't complain. I left the office everyday at 5.30pm sharp while the others left at 8.30/9pm. Some even had to travel from Seremban. ha!

For this month I'm assigned to a client who's placed right opposite HELP.

Can't disclose to much, don't wana get into trouble.

Work starts at 9am-6.30pm. I come staright here of course.

So the internship so far is good.

No complains YET...besides the jam!

note: I really wasn't looking forward to becoming an auditor because of the really realllyyyy long hours.

Who would wanna work so late you tell me?!?

*fucking kiasu no life people.* minus my father of course. lol.

*But now I secretly like what I'm doing minus the hours!*

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.2010.

2010

How fast did 2009 go by?

I can still remember when I came back to Adelaide,

exams,

fighting with everybody,

exams,

moving out,

exams...

And suddenly...

I'm in my final year already!

I actually told Shango,

"I blame this all on global warming"

"The world is spinning faster!"

"The days hv become shorter!"

"Karina...."

"You do know that time is constant and there is 24 hours in a day."

"Global warming can't reduce the 24 hours in a day"

tee hee...

I knew that :)

Did anyone watch 2010 the movie?

I have been thinking alot about it these past few days...

If anything of that sort were to happen...

God willing, not while I'm still alive!

I just hope and pray that my father has 5 billion euro's for each of us stored in a secret safe for our safety!

Last note.

My new years resolutions:

which will never happen I know

It never does...

keep cool

be patient

don't fight with every1

study before 2 week before the final exams

smile more

And here's to hoping that by the end of the year, I'll be able to tick most of it.

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.shout.

Ok. I know I ought to be shot dead.

My blog is not dead and I'm not giving up again....

I've just been really really busy you know :)

And my router wasn't working. I was too lazy to go upstairs to use the pc.

It was christmas blah blah....

Bottom line

I'm back!

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.this is it.

We went to watch the Michael Jackson This Is It Movie last night.




Wow.

That's all that came out of my mouth.

Wow

The video was not made up of the full dress rehearsal.
cause I think he died before they could even do it. :(
it was just bits and pieces joint together.
but even so, by just seeing that,
it was amazing!

The choreography, the settings, the costumes, the love, the music
it was spectacular.
I just can't find any word to describe him.

I was always a big fan of him but not until die hard la.
and I have always wanted to see him perform....
dam sad that I will never get that chance...

I didn't believe the rumors about him, didn't care how he looked.
But I do doubt his kids. lol.
Looks nothing like him!
Blanket is soooo cute!

He was beyond talented.
He sang, performed, choreographed and wrote every song of his.
well most of his songs were written by him, not all.

But still...
wow.

I cried seeing him.
After all that he had gone through...
his performance was beyond perfect.

He was so kind and gentle during the practices.
Never raised his voice or got angry.
He was such a perfectionist as well!


If he had not died and if the concert had actually gone as planed,
it would have been the greatest concert the world would have ever seen.

I'm sure the feeling of pain and loss is still felt in everybody's hearts
especially when his picture comes up or when his music is playing...
and I'm sure the feeling of pain and loss will always be there.
because he was a legend!
no singer could ever come as close to what he was.

The world really did suffer a great loss my dear King of Pop, and it is you Michael Jackson!

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