.dark and twisted.

Have you ever imagined yourself to be someone else?
Someone that nobody thought you could be.... Even yourself...

A flirt
A psycho
A descendant from royalty
An alien
A cannibal
A superhero
?????

Well I thought I was someone else at a point in my life. Someone that none of you would have ever guessed if given a million years.
*Though I would love to hear all the silly answers people would guess*

I was watching an episode from Brothers and Sisters earlier this afternoon and I realised what a wonderful family they are. But screw it. Families like that never exist in real life. Its just way to much drama. But I still love it anyway!

Anyway, there is these two gay characters who are married, Kevin and Scotty. So while I was watching them be so into one another in that episode it made me recap about my big, dark and twisted secret.

I'm sure you've guessed it by now.....


I thought I was a lesbian.


Mind you the word used is "thought".
NOT "was".

I'm sure at one point in a person's life they are surely to wonder if there is a possibility that they might be a homosexual.
*No point hiding it. I know it's true. :) *


That point in my life happened when I was 15 years old.
I was watching the first part of Cruel Intentions. It came to the part where Kathryn was trying to teach Cecile how to kiss a guy and at that short moment I wondered.....

It was the best lesbian kiss ever, that's for sure.
And after that scene, my mind could not stop going places where it should not go.
Images started popping out in my head and the flow of it just could not stop! It was just like when you have diarrhoea - Its keeps on coming and you can't stop it!!!
*Ok.... Bad example I know but I can't think of any another.*

"Could I be a lesbian?"
"What if I really am?"
"Does checking out hot girls make me a lesbian?"
*Now I know this is not true as every girl, lesbian or straight does this!*
*Envy.... One of my greatest sin*

All these questions.... Nobody to answer them.
Heck I didn't have anyone to talk to. Who could I have gone to?
My mom? Yea...sure.. As it is she has such a big problem with Nigel now imagine if I had a girlfriend.
Metal bars will be fixed to my windows and door.

So I did what I could do.
Let my mind wonder and see how far it would take me.
Took me really far actually but eventually after an hour or so I decided to make sure who I was.
I decided by imagining myself kissing a girl. Straight away Karisha's image came to my mind.
* I kissed her before when we were 6 to see what it felt like.... Nothing more.... :) *
It was to disgusting thinking of kissing my own sister so I went on to other girls but none came to my mind and it didn't have any effect on me.

Next thing : BOOBS

Well of course I was envious of those who had heavy racks and I have always found their assets "interesting".
I mean how can they become so big?!?!?
Imagine when these girls who own this big "assets" hit their sixties. It will all sag and look like papaya's, needing to be lifted up onto their shoulders so gravity won't cause these poor not-so-hot-anymore girl's to fall down.

Anyway, it did not get me turned on so much. So that's marked off. Anything following that also was marked off. Would not go into any details now. lol.

So it was clear. I was not a lesbian. Plus only MEN can give me the "chills" that go up my spine. No woman's touch have ever made me feel the "chills".

So to make myself clear.... I thought I was a lesbian but I am NOT.


However, back to Brother's and Sisters.... Gay people who are together with one another do get me turned on at times.
*very rarely but at times*
*Which is why sometimes I ask Nigel to go screw or give a BJ to another guy when he can't turn me on. lol.*

So what does that mean?

I'm screwed up..... lol.


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.new begining.

Oh boy oh boy oh BOY!!!!
I've got a secret to tell....

Ok fine... It's not exactly a secret secret but less than 10 people knows this so ITS BIG!

Wanna know what it is?!?!?!
* Can't stop jumping up and down*








IT'S CONFIRMED THAT I'M MOVING OUT OF THE VILLAGE IN JULY!!!!

*still jumping up and down*

KARINA AND SHANGARI ARE NOW THE VERY VERY VERY EXTREMELY PROUD TENANTS OF:
7/131 GRAY STREET!!!!

A huge applause breaks loose.... Karina and Shangari can't stop smiling like jackasses.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........


OK from the top I shall start. We were suppose to move in to this place called Pristina Court last week when we got the offer but the real estate agent for that place wanted someone to move in sooner than us (before 23rd of June). So she set out 2 more days to find new people and of course she couldn't find anyone better than us. *cheeky smile*

But we did not know this. So we thought that our chances of getting the place was slim so we went house hunting again and found this Gray street house last Friday.

On Monday Pristina calls me up and offers us the townhouse in the morning. I accepted it without hesitation because that was out ideal place. The excitement could not be controlled and my "studying" for that day went kaput. Oh well. Later after that, Gray calls me suddenly and offer's the place. I mean I could not believe it! We never thought we would get the townhouse at Gray Street but we did!!!! I accepted theirs as well and tried to wait as patiently as I could for Shangari to come back from uni.
*stupid donkey took soooo long*


After all the debating and drawing of pro con's list we decided to take Gray as it is $20 cheaper than Pristina a week and they have 2 bathrooms instead of 1 which Pristina has.
*However.... we had to forgo 3 weeks rent ($600 per person) as the agent wanted us to move in on the 8th of June. BUT, parents don't know so hush hush if you manage to read this*

So the next thing on the agenda was who was going to get the bedroom with the ensuite bathroom.

DUM DUM DUM.....

We both wanted it so badly so we had no choice but to leave it to luck/faith.
It was a dual consisting of three challenges. The person who wins two out of three would get the room.

The Three types of Challenge

1. Lucky Draw
(4 papers consisting 2 of Shangari's name and 2 of mine was put into a pot)

2. Rock, Paper, Scissors
(5 times)

3. Coin Toss
(Using a 50 cents coin)

Kavita was our judge. The first challenge, she pulled out Shangari's name. That women couldn't stop shouting and I couldn't stop wanting to strangle her!

And then, the second challenge. We made it till we drew 4, 4 and then....
I won using my rock to smash her scissors!!!
*thank you wonderful fist of mine*

So it was even now and it was all up to the coin toss. I swear that my heart was going to bungie jump off my chest. We did not know which was heads or tails *of course* lol. So she decided to take the queen side and I choose the kangaroo.

Kavita (my lucky charm from now onwards) flipped it and turned it over. She opened her hands and shouted KANGAROO!!!!!


HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!

You have no idea how happy I was!!!! I WON!!!

Hello ensuite bathroom of mind. *smiles from ear to ear*
*sorry Shangari.... I'll make it up to you somehow :) *


So today was the day we took a bus to the Parade in Norwood and went over the agreement with Sue *the bitch... don't ask*.
All looked fine and at 2.15pm we signed it and become proud tenants of the townhouse at 7/131 Gray Street!

Features of Gray's townhouse:

-Fully furnished modern townhouse
-Cutleries, oven, fridge, dishwasher, microwave and toaster included
-Balcony overlooking the city
-2 double bedrooms
-2 HUGE built in wardrobes
-2 bathrooms (1 of the is ensuite to one of the rooms)
-Dining table, sofa's and a TV
-Washing machine and drier
-Built in alarm system
-Double garage
-Free water bills without a limit on usage!!!


And for all of this including utilities, I'm paying the same amount for staying at the Village or maybe even cheaper!

So that is it for now. Pictures of the new place will be uploaded after we move in which is after 3rd of July 2009.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

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.monarto zoo.

3 days the sun was out, the weather was great and hot (23 degrees) but it of course had to be sooo gloomy and cold when I decide to go out!

Why does the weather here have something against me?!?!

Alarm rings at 7.30am and I sprang out of bed. I just could not control the excitement!
Karina's going to the zoo!!!! *after 10 years mind you*

But of course nothing in this world goes according to plan right. Shangari calls and tells me that she can't make it after what seemed like a stupid night for her. But oh well, Kavita decided to come in her place! :)

The weather was just so bad! It wasn't raining or anything. It was the wind! It was so strong and the chills it gives you that pierce through your spine! What a day to go to the zoo. Honestly, the zoo wasn't that great. I mean all the hype about it was for nothing. I mean common people.... Come to Malaysia, our zoo's way better!

Ok. Let me explain what exactly is Monarto Zoo. Its suppose to be like "Africa". Most of the animals here are what you get over there. The zoo is like an open range sanctuary where you go on a safari bus tour inside the animal's habitats. What habitats? Dry land, dry grass/no grass, dried mud.... "Just like Africa". That part they got it correct.

It wasn't a pretty sight. It was all dusty and dry. The animals too looked sedated (all of them were lying down or sleeping). And because we were on the bus, we could not actually take good photos of them due to the dirty windows on the bus.

The only good thing from this trip was that we had pretty close encounters with the giraffes. One heck of a creature. I have always admired them. Huge, tall creatures that have wonderful printed skin and walk on toes. Did you know that they actually walked on their toes?!? I knew i didn't until today.


Yeap. WOW!

Anyway I'm just too lazy to upload the other pics that I took at the zoo. So I'll upload those once exams are over. As for now, I'll leave you with the GIRAFFE TALK. It's a conversation between 3 giraffes that we saw today. (If the pictures are too small, click on them to enlarge)













At least that's what I thought they said to one another. *smiles*


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